Ridiculous me

Looking back on the things I've done,
I was trying to be someone,
But as time pass the things that I've done
Haunts me back mercilessly.. mercilessly
Turning myself into someone I can't even recognize with.

Now I'm just hiding myself in the dark,
It's getting too overwhelming, I'm not even sure of my own being,
Everything seems so confusing, tiring and now I'm wondering,
If I'll ever be that someone I've always wanna be.

I'm sitting here in my room thinking about the past,
I'm stuck in the memories I made years back,
Sometimes I wish I can just let it pass,
But no! after all these years it keeps on haunting me,
Making it so obvious how I screwed up.

What I wanna be and how I turn out to be,
Frustrates me, it hurts me,
I wanna love myself again,
I wanna show how thankful I am,
To the Mighty Lord who created me,

Yet I fail myself, yet again.. yet again...

The time will come when
I'll be able to come back to my senses again,
I'll be able to be what I wanna be,
I'll be able to be what the Lord wants me to be,
I'll be able to fulfil the purpose of my being,

The time will come,
Yes the time will come,
Just perservere a little longer,
The time will come when I can say,
I'm proud of how I turn out to be.


merrydi 1986
1.10 p.m
23/2/2011